I’m so happy to be writing to you guys again. I’ve missed pouring my heart out to you and allowing you to come along side me on my crazy life journey. God has been growing me so much since last time we talked. I had just got back from a weekend retreat in Big Bear, CA. God had done some amazing things on that trip. He grew me so much in that short time. He didn’t cease to stop after that.
Time sure does fly by!! I’ve been realizing more and more life is like a vapor. The moment is here and then, poof! its gone in a second. From last time I wrote to you, I was still in high school juggling the stress of getting school done and figuring out what was next. Well, I finally graduated. I finished high school. It’s crazy to think that part of my life is done and over with. Going from year to year with the same routine. It was never really a big deal when you finished the year, because you were only going back to it 3 months later. That all changes after you graduate. All of a sudden, that routine is broken, and adulthood is standing in front of you. So much uncertainty, so much before you. its overwhelming. You’re out of your comfort zone, you now have to make the hard, and difficult decisions. I knew once I finished high school, my life was going to change. But, I could’t let myself go wayward, or grow weary. I had to remember what my security was in, my confidence, and my faith. I had to remember Jesus in this moment. I needed Jesus.
Soon, after I graduated I started working pretty much full time, and getting involved in ministry full time. Things got crazy, real fast. I went to La Gloria, Mexico for a missions trip. It was one thing after the other. But, Mexico was Gods way of telling me to sit and pause. Yes, missions trips are often busy, crazy, you never know what to expect in your day. The only thing you do know, is you never stop moving. God showed me something a little different on this trip. Take life moment by moment. Step by step. Word for word. And breath by breath. In the midst of busy pace schedules, where you feel like time never stops, you look for opportunities in the times in between to stop and sit, listen. But, I’ve come to find that the sweetest of times with my Savior are the times I’m not looking for them. Where Jesus meets you.
I think of a story we hear in the Bible. In John 4, we hear about of the woman at the well. Here, we see this woman, everyday life, busy schedule, in the midst of her daily routine. Jesus. Jesus finds her. He stops to talk with her, He meets her in her midst. She’s so caught up in life, her chores, and daily routine she’s missing who she's talking with. Are we missing those times in our life Jesus is talking directly to us because we are distracted by what life is throwing all around us?
God showed me in Mexico, to just stop and listen to His voice. To step back and let Him lead me. Its so easy when life gets crazy to run ahead of God. But, when we run ahead and we look back, we see all the missed opportunities. I don’t know about you, but when I took a second to look back, my heart was burdened, and sorrowful when I realized the possible conversations or divine appointments I missed, because I was leading myself.
You don't need to look around to find Him, He's right there. Ready to take your hand in this journey of life and lead you. He's ready to walk along your side and show you the beauty of what life with Him looks like.
Let Jesus meet you today. He’s knocking at your heart, trying to step through and lead you. What’s holding you back from Him?
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